Day by Day….waiting….

It’s been almost 10 months since I got declared in remission from Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. My best friend’s birthday is next Wednesday. He would have been 18 this year. He passed away December 26, 2009 from cancer. It’s not fair at all! I hate cancer! It makes me so sad to go to the hospital and see little kids stuck there playing toys like it’s normal. I wish I could take all the pain away. It’s hard. I try to keep a smile on my face as much as I can. Sometimes I feel like I have no one to talk to who truly understands. I go for a scan next week and my friends don’t get why I am nervous. I hate scans. They show whether or not the cancer is still gone. I pray the entire time I am getting the scan that the cancer is still gone. I don’t like waiting. This is so hard. I just hope things turn out for the best.

October 5, 2010 by  
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  • Sarah Simpson

    hey im Sarah, i know what your taking about. waiting is the hardest thing to do. i have acute lymphocyte Leukemia. i will pray for you. dont worry think positive! :)

    • Domi

      thanks Sarah!! hope you are doing well!

  • Shannon Paton

    I also have hodgkins on chemo now. i finnish next month, did you have radiotherapy? did your scan go , good i hope?

  • hereforme

    i know what ur feeling my best friend died two days after he turned 19 even though im only 15 he still was my best friend he was there for me and even told me that we would walk together in the relay for life surviors lap and even little kids when i had chemo i had to stay for a month so i always saw kids that acted totally normal like this is normal to them i saw some walk in and not ever see them walk back in sometimes good sometimes bad i feel scared every single time i go to clinic cause i know if they even see somthing in my blood then its bad and now another friend who did the same EXACT treatment plan i did relapsed and now im scared more then ever

    • Domi

      i know what u mean. i hate going to the clinic because i am always scared that something is going to go wrong and relapse again. :/

      this week is very hard. his 18th birthday is Wednesday. i hate that he is not here!!! :((
      if you ever need to talk, find me on facebook or email me:

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