Day by Day….waiting….
It’s been almost 10 months since I got declared in remission from Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. My best friend’s birthday is next Wednesday. He would have been 18 this year. He passed away December 26, 2009 from cancer. It’s not fair at all! I hate cancer! It makes me so sad to go to the hospital and see little kids stuck there playing toys like it’s normal. I wish I could take all the pain away. It’s hard. I try to keep a smile on my face as much as I can. Sometimes I feel like I have no one to talk to who truly understands. I go for a scan next week and my friends don’t get why I am nervous. I hate scans. They show whether or not the cancer is still gone. I pray the entire time I am getting the scan that the cancer is still gone. I don’t like waiting. This is so hard. I just hope things turn out for the best.