I wish things were normal.
I wish things were normal again.
I wish I could go back.
To the way things were,
Before the war.
Before, when I could run a mile without getting tired,
compared to now, when I can’t make it up the stairs without getting winded.
Before, when I could kiss my sweet sweet Ashley without a second thought.
compared to now, when she’s afraid to spread germs to me, because my immune system went to crap.
Back when I spent my afternoons playing football, and soccer.
Compared to now, when I spend my afternoons asleep, or taking treatments.
Back when I stayed out until after curfew, and spent my weekend nights on dates.
Compared to now, when 8pm is late to go to sleep, and I can’t go on dates, because I’m puking.
Back when I aced every class, and was all honors.
Compared to now, when I never get to go to school, and my grades are dropping.
Back when I could afford to be carefree.
Compared to now, when I have to monitor every aspect of my life to stay alive.
Back when I left the house every day, and worked at Chick-fil-a.
Compared to now, when I never leave the house, and I had to quit my job.
Back to when I was healthy.
Compared to now, when I’m completely te opposide.
Oh. How I wish I could go back.
Back to when things were normal…